What a difference 2 years can make...

Here's a post from a couple of years ago. Hard to believe that I've been posting, even if sporadically, for that long.

http://knitforknot.blogspot.com/2007/04/only-5-mintues.html


Since then, Mother has died. I'm no longer as involved in the church and I don't have to make the blood this year. I think they're using ketchup. Both kids are still riding horses & racing. I now own the tire store with my sister. Mostly though, I feel more disconnected than I did then. Personally. I don't want to be at the church and while I've questioned the organized religion route for quite some time, I now feel it's even less important than I used to. God, or whatever you chose to call him/her, does not solely exist in the walls of a building.

Mainly, I am missing Mother. It was two years ago that I knew she didn't feel good. We had spoken about her putting off her colonoscopy and a doctor's visit due to her mother visiting and some things at the store going on. I remember telling her to quit putting it off. I can't help but wonder if I could've said something different. Offered to drive her to the doctor, offered to work the store, etc. I think hindsight is a curse and a blessing. I realize my sister has her own feelings about this time, but this time of year is truly sad for me. I just want to crawl in a hole, wrap myself in an afghan made by her, and not come out into the world. I want to go back in time a few years back from then and insist she come to my house for Easter. I want to hold her hand one more time, share a cup of coffee, see her make her potato soup, hear her voice in my ear as her arm goes around my shoulders.

What I want and what I get are not mine to choose.

Take care - Me

Eye candy...

So, I blew off some steam yesterday. I thought I'd give you a couple of photos for eye candy today. :)

Take care - Me

This one's for you "Anonymous"

To Anonymous who wishes to cuss and rant about name stealing - get some meds. I moderate these comments, and other than this one directed to you, your insane, profane, irrational Xanax-needing voice will not be heard here. Go get help.

And to help you out, here's a reference about the name in question you freak! In the South, we substitute "Daddy" for "Father."

grand⋅fa⋅ther   [gran-fah-ther, grand-] Show IPA
–noun
1. the father of one's father or mother.
2. a forefather.
3. the founder or originator of a family, species, type, etc.; the first of one's or its kind, or the one being longest in existence: the grandfather of all steam locomotives.
–verb (used with object)
4. to exempt (something or someone) from new legislation, restrictions, or requirements: The law grandfathered all banks already operating at the time of passage. He was grandfathered into the pension plan.

Origin:
1375–1425; late ME; see grand-, father

grandfather
1424, from grand + father. Replaced O.E. ealdefæder. The use of grand- in compounds, with the sense of "a generation older than, or younger than," is first attested c.1225, in Anglo-Fr. graund dame "grandmother." L. and Gk. had similar usages. Grandmother also first attested 1424, from M.Fr.; grandchild, grandson are later (16c.). The verb grandfather is from 1900. Grandfather clock is c.1880, from the popular song; they were previously known as tall case clocks or eight-day clocks.

Take care - Me

A Racing We Will Go...

Rokimus is in the red kart approaching (rapidly) the black kart that had just spun out. I now need to edit the audio on the camcorder!

Moosie is in the yellow kart approaching her opponent (school friend) about to make her first racing pass. She made it successfully without spinning the other kart or herself out. I foresee many more passes in her racing career!

It's officially race season around here! Saturday night found us at the local track with both kids racing. This is Moosie's first time racing, though you'd never know it to watch her. She finished first in the heat and feature! Girl Power!! :) (Momma might be proud)

Rokimus was up against 8 other racers, aged 8-12. We're still having issues with his new set up and we couldn't get his kart to turn the RPM it needed to. He started 3rd in the heat, finishing 2nd. This position determines where you start in the feature. So, he started 2nd in the feature and finished 2nd after not being quite able to pass the 1st place racer. As this is the first race he's not won since he first started racing, I'd say he's doing just fine! :) Of course, he's already planning on how to do better next weekend at the State Series race.

For those of you who wish and are allowed - I've posted pics on the other site.


Take care - Me