Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Today

Today I'm ripping out carpet. Today, I'm trying not to think about how much I miss my mother. Today, I'm trying to think of something else other than this will be the first time in 37 years that I've not seen or spoken to the woman that gave me life. I'm trying to not be angry that last year I knew it was the last birthday I would spend with her and I had to share her with someone I don't care for much. Or how she was so tired from entertaining that person and working at the store that she couldn't visit with me later in the day. Today, I'm trying not to think about then or now. And today, I'm trying not to notice the rivers of tears falling on old carpet.

Take care - Me

4 comments:

Jennie said...

What can I say?

It really really really really sucks.

I'm thinking of you today.

camille said...

I know I am few days late, but I love you and I know you miss her dearly! Jennie said it best....It sucks. Happy B-day dear one, I hope today was better than yesterday.

knitforknot said...

You didn't miss it. Today's the day. I did not mean to imply that it was my birthday on the 11th. :)

camille said...

No, I knew it was your bday the day I added my post. I meant to say that I was sorry to respond to your blog a couple of days after you wrote it.